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Monday, April 28, 2014

Lamentations 3:22-23

After yesterday's post about our day that came out of nowhere, I've had a few thoughts on my mind. 

First of all, thank you for your many words of encouragement! I'm a big words of affirmation girl and your kindness really puts things in perspective and helps me to persevere. 

But, also, I want to share that nothing good in that post came from my own natural desires. God is refining us. God is carrying us. And tho God is allowing trials, He's bringing us safely through them. 

The first verse on my mind after the fire was Isaiah 43:2 "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you." In a semi-joking way, I told Jason that if the smoke stain didn't come off the wall we would put that verse there to remind us! (The smoke stain came right off, btw). 

But today, as I was scrolling through Facebook, I came across this status and was blown away by the reminder: "Through the Lord ’s mercies we are not consumed, Because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness." (Lamentations 3:22, 23 NKJV)

It is ONLY BY HIS GRACE that any of us are not consumed. We absolutely cannot take credit for a good attitude, making it through a tough day, or doing anything good at all. Afterall, like the song says, "the only thing that's good in me is Jesus!" 

I'm thankful for His grace. Without it. I. Would. Be. Nothing. 

Sunday, April 27, 2014

Not A Bed of Roses. Or Is It?


Yes. We get to experience some pretty cool things living this 'adventurous' life we live. And, yes, I'm thankful for the amazing things we've seen and done, places we've been, people we've met, and life God has given us. 

But this weekend has been one of those weekends that has made me want to throw in the towel and go running for home. And, since I mainly share the positive side of things, today, I'm gonna tell it like it is. And truthfully, throughout this trial I have repeatedly reminded myself of what I have to be thankful for. Not only besides the trial but actually in it. So I'll share those too. 

Both girls came down sick beginning Friday night. Kamden, without exaggerating, threw up every five to ten minutes from 11:30PM till 3AM when she finally caught a break and slept until 6AM and started puking again. My heart broke for her and there was nothing I could do. She's usually pretty chipper through puking (strange child) but this time she could barely hold her head up. 

And then when we all woke up Saturday AM, Kiley's first words were "My tummy hurts." And so it began for her as well. She was lucky. Only threw up once but had a terrible fever to go with it. 

Did I mention Jason was out of town and the power was off and on all night? And that Kamden almost never misses the bucket, but this time she did! ;) 

Honestly, somehow, only by God's grace, I was able to serve those two girls far better than I ever have in the past. I just kept reminding myself to serve them with love. Graciously and selflessly. Yes. Pathetic that I had to remind myself but a victory that I did it.  And God gave me the grace to stay awake during (most of) their movies that they wanted so desperately for me to see! 

Jason got home in time to leave again. ;) And last night we found... (I'm baring it all now, ladies and gentlemen), ROACHES!  And I don't mean one. Plural. Dis. Gust. ING. We live in the middle floor of a home that is wedged between other homes so it's no wonder. But, seriously! I was disgusted. We didn't sleep. We researched. And we set out for battle!  Thankfully, it seems as if they've confined themselves to one room. They are coming through the drain and residing under our kitchen sink. I know. Gross. You don't have to tell me. But what to do other than declare war and go at it. We got up extra early and Jason set out to get the weapons while I went to work completely stripping the kitchen of everything. 

Sadly, this is where I have to mention that Kamden came down with a high fever as well. So now, two sick girls and an all-out war on the most disgusting creature in the world. 

So, when you think what a glamorous life we seem to be living. Think again. Because moments like these remind me that we are certainly not living a fairy tale. 

So... Now for the thankful moments because it's good to end on a good note: 

-Jason came home! Yay! And he's always level headed! While I'm considering packing our bags, he's thinking logically. 

-Both girls have gotten lots of cuddle time and surely know I love them. ;) As a matter of fact, there's tons to be done but I'm currently holding a sleeping Kamden because of her reputation of seizing from fevers so I don't want to leave her alone. 

-Jason and I work WELL together! And I think it's neat to see how five years ago this disaster would have ended in an argument. Not today. Today we have worked as a team. 

-Soni Didi was able to come today so, as I cleaned out the kitchen, she washed every dish in it so we could really have a next to perfectly spotless kitchen.

-We are pretty certain we've found the source and the proper method for getting rid of them and tho me of little faith has a hard time believing we won't be dealing with this again soon, I'm thankful for now. 

-I'm reminded that life isn't a bed of roses. Or maybe it is. And that's just it. Roses have thorns. And this weekend, tho I could smell the roses, I could certainly feel the thorns! 



Addendum: I can't believe I'm actually having to add to this but the 'fun' actually didn't stop there! We were on the last phase of clean up when we heard a loud pop! Our electrical box had blown sending very bad smoke throughout the house. So we checked on it and got outside because the smell was too much. About five minutes later, Jason and I stepped inside and the smell was worse. Believe it or not, a spark had managed to fall into a basket we keep nearby and had caught it on fire! My purse, wallet, and the basket were among the only real casualties. We were on the verge of overly frustrated when some friends stopped by to show us their new cd! Yay for good friends to take yourkns off things. So we all sat outside while the house cleared out! 

The rest is just laughable. Finally finished cleaning the house around ten after fixing dinner in the newly cleaned kitchen. Wen for a long awaited shower... Our water heater had quit! No problem, right? We have another shower. Got in. Water ran out!!!! Sent Jason downstairs to start the pump, I hear him growl... What now... A cat had gotten into our trash!!!! Unbelievable!!!! We finally made it to bed and are taking the girls in tomorrow to see the doc and get those tummy issues cleared up! Whoo! What. A. Day. 





Sunday, April 20, 2014

EASTER - EASTER = JESUS

Our first Christmas here was a doozie. There's no denying that. But the second Christmas when I had come to my senses, I asked someone after the church service, "So, what will you guys do now?" Mind you, their kids were ecstatic that it was Christmas, dancing around all hyper and pumped! They're answer? "कुच नहीं!" Means: NOTHING. I'm pretty sure I picked my chin up off the floor. Because it hit me, these guys were excited about one thing and one thing only: JESUS!!!! 

So, this weekend that concept has been on my mind. If it weren't for the new dress, the Easter bunny, the Easter basket and the egg hunts, the special meal, and, should I dare say, even the extravagant worship service, would we wake up as excited to celebrate simply Jesus this Easter? Or would it be just another day? 

I asked the girls why they were excited about Easter. Kamden said it was because Jesus died on the cross. Kiley said she wasn't really sure, she just loves how excited everyone is. But, what about you? What about me? What gets us excited about Easter? The extra time with family? The pretty dresses everyone will be wearing? The smile on our kids' faces when they see a load of toys and candy? Or is it Jesus? And if it's Jesus, why shouldn't we be so excited year round! I don't know and I have a lot of baggage and a lot of ideas about a 'good Easter' myself, but, man, there's nothing like worshipping with a bunch of people who have nothing else to look forward to that day besides, well, JESUS!!! 

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Dreams Really Do Come True

My. Whole. Life. I've dreamed of one thing. Desires come and go. Ideas of perfection change. But this one hope always flickered in the back of my mind. As a child, I wanted four kids. Two of them twins. I had the names picked out and everything. ;) 

I've daydreamed even in recent years of having twins and if you know me very well, you know I'm not kidding when I say I've wanted them my whole life. 

So, when we walked into that ultrasound, looking back, I'm surprised that the thought wasn't on either of our minds. In that moment, we were just excited about seeing the baby and letting the girls get their first glimpse. 

But it all happened so fast!!!! The lady scanned across my belly. I saw two black circles flash across the screen while she simultaneously says, "Was this a normal concep..." And I started screaming, "GO BACK!!!!!! GO BACK!!!!! I SAW IT!!! THERE'S TWO!!!!!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!? ARE THERE TWO?!? THERE'S TWO! I SAW THEM!!!!!!! I HAVE WANTED THIS MY WHOLE LIFE!!!!!!!!!"  

I'm surprised the lady didn't have me hospitalized for my extreme outburst. ;) She was patient and only had to tell me to sit still a handful of times. ;) I began to cry and she blamed it on the level of emotions but, do you know why I was crying? 

Because WHO AM I?!?!? That God would smile down on me in such a way! And give me not only the desires of my heart but in such a beautiful and perfect way!!!  I just kept asking Jason, "Does this really happen in real life?!?!? Is this for real?" 

The girls were excited, but I'm not gonna lie. My excitement somewhat outshines everyone else's. ;) After all, I've been dreaming of this moment the longest. 

They did, however, shout out "NOW WE EACH GET ONE!!!!" Talk about spoiled! ;)

Jason was all smiles. Because he's awesome like that. And he knows how bad I've always wanted this. And, he's just cool, and in his own words, "I'm up for anything!"  

We got to see two sweet little hearts beating and then walk out on a cloud!!!

OH MY WORD WE ARE HAVING TWINS!!! 

Sharing the news has been more than fun!!! I mean, really, how often do you get a call to say someone is having twins, let alone someone who has wanted them forever.  So, the repeated "oh my gosh oh my gosh" or the "get out of town" and the beloved "I actually prayed for this!!" Or the "I already had to shut my office door. My boss thinks I'm crazy!"  Or your dad looking back and forth between the screen and your mom and saying "She's kidding us! She's kidding!" And being reminded ever so sweetly of how a lady whom I love very much, my own grandmother, always said that the happiest day of her life was the day she gave birth to her twins! And, now, I get to experience that same amazing blessing!!!  

No kidding, folks, I daydreamed of how I would one day share the news if ever I were so blessed. And, I must say, words fail me. But all I know is that long ago, I asked for twins. And God chose instead to bless me with the most amazing little girls in the world. But, now, He has outdone Himself once again by pouring blessing on top of blessing!!!!!! 

And, so, in true Coke fashion, it's always an adventure!!!!! 

PS. Let me be quoted in saying that I know this is not going to be easy but I'm up for the challenge. Remind me of that in those difficult moments. ;) 

Kiley said these were the TWO hearts beating in my tummy! 

Monday, April 14, 2014

Blessed FAR Beyond Measure

As I sit here at 1AM, I can't help but be incredibly thankful. Life just doesn't work out this way in real life and yet somehow, for me, it has. How is it that we can walk into a place where we know no one, under leadership we've met only one time through Skype, and end up being in a dream world of a situation? How did we end up with mentors who really care about us and really want to see us succeed? How did we end up with people who not only went before and paved the way, but continue to walk alongside us and be not only our leaders, but our friends? I know that this is a rare, if not nearly impossible situation to end up in. And I am so incredibly grateful for it. When I stop and consider what benefits I have gained from being a part of this team in this place at this time, it's like a snowball effect because one thing leads to another and I see the iceberg that is below the surface of all that these guys have done to ensure as smooth a ride as possible. My words truly aren't sufficient and, chances are these guys may never read this post but I am counting my blessings tonight because I know we have been incredibly blessed! 

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

The US Dollar: What a Concept

Today was fun. Soni Didi came up to me holding a US Quarter and a Euro that had fallen off of Jason's nightstand. 

She said, "Didi, what are these? They look like money, but they're not!" So I began to tell her how countries all over the world use different types of money. She totally didn't get It for a while! It was so fun educating her! 

And, then I braved that Hindi by deciding to educate her even further on the US dollar! Guys! Did you ever realize how confusing our system is?!?!! When I pulled out a penny and said "one" but then pulled out a dollar and it had "1" written on it but I had to tell her it was actually one hundred!!! Shwew!!  And she was so confused as to why the quarter didn't have a number written anywhere on it! And we're supposed to just know what it's worth?!? ;) 

So then I started showing her all the coins and how each one was worth a certain number of pennies!!!! And as I went on, I realized how hard it really is to teach U.S. money!!! ;) 

Then, don't forget the comparison to the rupee! So I said that if milk is 20 rupees a bag here then it would be about 40 cents. But, she took that to mean milk is 40 cents in the US! Ha! Long shot! So then I had to explain, no, it's much more expensive, but that 20 rupees was equal to about 40 cents! Wowzers! 

It was fun and educational for me as well! The things we don't realize that aren't just common knowledge to everyone. She even asked me "Didi! Did you know about the rupee before you came here? And how? And what did you do when you got here to spend money? They wouldn't take your money, would they?"  

So interesting! So fun! And, I give myself an A+ for explaining a complex topic in a foreign language and her an A++ for understanding something she's never even heard of and especially through my Hindi. ;) 

The 5 Cokes (titled BEFORE our most recent findings!)

Well, ladies and gents! The news is out and we couldn't be happier! We are expecting our third baby! The4cokes will soon become the5cokes! I hope to jot down some of the cute and funny things my 6 & 8 year olds say and do throughout this pregnancy. 

So, for now, I'll just share how I told the family about our new addition and how the girls responded. 

First off, I took a 10 year expired pregnancy test so I wasn't convinced it was actually accurate. I know, counterproductive. Why take the test if you're not gonna believe it. And then it was time to leave for a week in the village! So, what else to do other than keep it a secret until I could know for sure!!!! So I didn't say a word to my husband. Didn't even let on!!!! Looking back, I am a bad person!!!! But, in my defense, I didn't want to say to him, "we might be". Plus, I wanted to surprise him in a fun way so he was forced to be excited. ;) Sneaky sneaky. 

So, when we returned home, I retested and sure enough... That night I baked a cookie cake that read "the5cokes". Then I asked the girls if they wanted to play telephone. I whispered in Kiley's ear "I'm gonna be a big sister." She whispered in Kamden's ear, then Kamden whispered in Daddy's ear. And... The girls were totally oblivious. They totally didn't get it. After all, it was just a game of telephone, not gospel truth, right?!? ;) finally they caught on, Jason has suspected for quite some time (not so great at hiding things apparently), and once they got it, a party ensued!! 

Back story: Kamden has literally been ANGRY that, in her own words, "I'm the only one who's not a big sister!..." So she has been waiting for this day for quite some time!

Also, that night (thanks to Kamden's brave science teacher) I was informed by Kamden, "Mommy!!!! Did you ever know it comes out right beside you leg?!?" Thank you, Kamden, for that lesson in childbirth! 

The girls immediately began choosing and writing names. And I immediately informed them that mommy and daddy would be choosing the name! 

Also, Kamden looked at the cake and said, "mommy! You should have put 'theM5cokes' for 'maybe' because it could be twins!!! 

They were also quite concerned about us having to change our emails etc! Gotta love the important details they think of. 

The next morning, Kamden divied of jobs for taking care of the baby. Kamden- teach it to ride the scooter and hold it. Kiley- teach it criss cross applesauce and how to color inside the lines. I have to feed it and daddy changes diapers! Hahaha! All I have left is to do the dishes if Soni Didi doesn't come. Hmmm! This should be the easiest baby ever! ;) 

Kamden can't stop rubbing my belly and talking to the baby and Kiley can't stop saying, "I can't believe it! I never thought you'd have another baby!" 

The land of the4cokes is full of adventure and this is bound to be another great one! 


Sunday, April 6, 2014

Our Week in the Village

On the way to the village, on a 7 hour ride in a crammed vehicle with children lying one on top of the other just trying to get some rest, Kamden says, "See! There's plenty of room!" ... I knew then that she would be just fine in the village for the week, and that she's been in the land of zero personal space a little too long. ;) 

We arrived in the middle of the night so it was hard to see anything other than the amazingly beautiful stars in the sky! But I knew pretty early on that we were in a pretty remote village and that this week would hold experiences we never dreamed of having. 

We entered the home where we would be staying. A small entry room with four cots lined up for sleeping. A small kitchen to the right of that. Straight ahead, two more rooms: one was nearly empty, and one had been set up for our family, complete with two cots pushed together covered with possibly all the padding to be found in the village, and a fan overhead. We'd been traveling all day so we headed pretty much straight to bed. The four of us.  We were crowded but the others around us were more than crowded. Some of them slept on the floor the entire week to offer us the best of the home. 

It was noisy that first night. I'm not gonna lie. One of the neighbors had a deathly cough and it kept him and everyone else awake most of the night. The mosquitoes were fierce and the flies were loud. And we didn't rest all that well that first night.

We woke up at about 5 AM to the sound of peacocks which sounds a lot like a cat, and we were up and at it long before the rooster crowed at 6 AM. 

I went with my friend to the neighbors to get a glass of milk for tea... Straight from the buffalo standing in front of me. I mean straight! Then we headed off to meet the neighbors, most of whom were relatives, and to meet the one home in the village that had a squatty potty outside their home so that we could feel comfortable heading there should we need to use the restroom. Sometimes we took advantage of that and sometimes we just found a spot like everyone else. ;) 

That morning, after truly a delicious breakfast of veggies and roti, we headed out to see the fields. It was a long hot walk, about 3KM one way through the wheat fields. But let me tell you, the Bible came alive!!!!! 

-the fields are ready for Harvest but the laborers are few!
-the chaff will be seperated! 
-don't be blown about by every wind and doctrine. 

It was truly a joy to walk through those fields and see the stories come to life. Not to mention the super sweet company we got to keep. We really had a blast. One sweet boy carried Kamden a lot of the way and although she acted like she didn't want him to, I think she was thankful, or at least would have been had she known what she was missing. ;) 

We headed home after trying our hand at some harvesting and ate a delicious lunch. Then it was the beloved rest time of South Asia! Thank God for it! And rest we did!!!!  Followed by more visits with sweet family members throughout the village. I'm pretty sure I drank ten cups of tea that day! 

That evening, we ran out to see the Gunga and took a small boat ride out on the waters. What darkness and sadness to be among this place where fires are constantly burning in hopes that loved ones will gain salvation because they were burned beside the holy river. 

After heading back, we got the opportunity to have a small prayer meeting/house church with the people there. That was a neat time. Then we ate dinner and headed to bed. Most days the electricity was on a total of 2-3 hours during an entire 24 hour period. Meals were even cooked in the dark. 

The following day, we spent most of the day in another village, where we had house church in one home and then spent the afternoon resting and eating lunch in another home. It was a long fun day. Then we headed back and spent some time with our super sweet hosts. I really enjoyed chatting with my friend's mom and her sweet laugh and just the way she welcome us and made us feel like family. 

We had another short Bible study that night and headed off to bed. 

Thursday came quickly, and we had been invited to another home in the city so we packed our bags, said our goodbyes, and headed to the city where we relaxed some more and had lunch. 

After lunch, we rushed to the local bus station where we hopped on a bus like no other ;) for the ride of a lifetime. Three hours to the next city where we met up with our vehicle and headed for home. 

Without a doubt, it was one of my favorite experiences of my life. The girls were in their element... Holding every animal known to man and running and playing with the kids, eating the blackberries straight from the tree and these delicious little minituare apples that they couldn't get enough of. Filthy dirty before the day even seemed to begin! We each tried our hand at a variety of jobs. I even got to milk a buffalo for the first time ever! 

The company we had the privelege to keep was so sweet and truly I could have spent a ton more time with them. I left with a beautiful orange sari as a gift that I wasn't allowed to refuse and hugs and hopes to meet again soon. (Oh and we each left with about fifty bug bites, but who's counting?!) 

What a fun and unique experience. I am so thankful the opportunity came up and that we were able to do it together as a family. 

Luxuries

I learned this week that there are a number of items that are actually not necessities at all. Simply luxuries. Those items include: 

Pillows
Bug Spray 
Electricity 
Doors 
Toilets 
Toilet Paper
Cough Medicine
Pajamas 
A Change of Clothes

Most of the items we couldn't imagine living without, Almost like they were a staple for life... People live happily daily without any of them. 

It was an adventurous week. One I never want to forget and one I would love to experience again!